Friday, March 28, 2008

Revenge of The Test Fear

I'm not having a good night, folks. I write my CASLPA certification exam tomorrow (four hours, two hundred questions) and The Test Fear is setting in. A headache is creeping up on me, I can't concentrate on anything, and with every page or note I review or re-write, the words "there's no WAY you're going to do this" keep echoing in my head. I'm doing my best, but it's just so daunting; for every fact or theory I remember there are five more I need to review. I know it's almost pointless to keep studying, but I kind of have to. I normally don't react like this to tests, but this one's a BIG one, and unlike any other test I've ever written (except maybe the GRE), my entire life pivots around this test. I don't know. Maybe I should have started studying earlier, even though I did start at the end of January; maybe 2 months wasn't enough. Maybe I should have dedicated more time to it. Maybe I should have tried harder to get a hold of some other people who were studying for the exam too. I don't know that any of that would have helped my mood right now. I'd still be worrying, probably just as bad. But maybe then I'd at least be prepared and feel unprepared, as opposed to what I think I am now. Let's hope I'm not flushing $400 and the next year of my life down the drain.

(Sorry. I'm not normally this pathetic, but the stress is getting to me.)


Jago said...


You'll do fine. And then, afterwards, when you need a beer, I might be able to help you out with that.

Gwyn said...

You're a brilliant man so I am sure yesterday went well ... Keep us posted!

Natalie said...

I'm sure you will be excellent.